True Love

It all began on the night
I came back
Spotted one in the alley
Thought its bright pink
Had a pretty glow
In the dark.

Then I met one more
And another;
True Love spread
All over town
I would photograph
Each one
With my heart.

Starting to look for it
Proved to be
The wrong habit;
As it is written on the wall
That is when
I would least find it  --

And once I had forgotten
Out of nowhere
Someone out there
Made certain
It was now time
To be
Reminded.

True Love is everywhere
True Love comes
In all shapes and sizes
Eternalized
In the most symbolic places
On that brick
On a trash
At times spelled backwards
Others
With a message
I would cogitate on
Long after.

The last one
Was that kind
Its sense
Divine;

It read Love True
And in my heart of hearts
I knew;

What makes Love true
Is the way I love you.

Detour

I had been assured
God had a shrewd way
Of testing the sour
That paths would continue to cross
'Til I was able at last
To resolve
The implicit matters
Between us.
Time had passed
-- But
Time between goodbye
And the heart that says
Bon voyage
A second is eternal
I would wake up in the morning
Better each day
Though still in mourning.
I was holding onto nothing
Kept replaying the last thing
It was clear in my head
But when I saw you
What I felt
More shock
Than what I thought
was left.
Maybe I had to see you
This last time
To ferret out
Why you were never
mine
I was glozing over
Excuses
I never got
When all along
It was I
Who could call the shots.
Maybe I had to see you
One last time
A proper goodbye
After the one
You were not able to
Provide
-- For me to identify
That I had already let go
And I was certain
I could never live
Without your shadow.
God made me take this detour
However I was now sure
It was the right path
For me to come out
Victorious.

Again

You can feel yourself slip again

Your chest starts to tighten

And your thoughts slowly blacken

It is a subtle process but it is happening

Will it be worse this time, wondering.

You do not want to lie in that state again

A promise you make to yourself

Now and back then 

Every time you cry without reason.

But here you are, prating

Once again, to bury that side of you 

That will always be hurting;

Once you have creeped into the dark

All your broken pieces are terrified to go back.

But I tell you, whether or not

You are sliding into Hell's mouth

Once again and once more after that

I will be here pulling you back up;

When you are tired of looking for light

I will never tire of your fight.

Easily

Maybe she loves too easily
Yet she means it when she says it
Her heart on the table
For the person to devour it.

Maybe she loves too easily
She should see how things will evolve
Before flying, one has to first learn
How to crawl.

Maybe she gives herself entirely
That she should protect herself
So she will not be deceived
So briskly.

Maybe she gives herself entirely
And she should not unless she wants
To slowly sparge the pieces
Of yet another shattered heart.

    She gives her love too easily

    But when the ones she adores

    make it worth it

    It overrules

    All other times

    She ended up sobbing like a fool

    The only way to live

    To give is to receive

    She chooses easily

    Over carefully,

    Her heart

    For the taking.

#ootd

Carpe Diem is wearing your best clothes on an ordinary day.

Chronology

Marriage is not the end goal; it is the beginning.

Drafts

Flipping

Through my pages

Looking into

Previous phases

Most of them

Done

A few

I saw

Still

Blank

And in the middle

How I had forgotten

That in those

Pages

I had scribbled.

Confused

Because

Rest assured

I myself

Utterly unsure

Why would I keep

Drafts

Were they all in fact

daft?

Then
I grappled

All of a sudden
I remembered

 Did not leave

More feelings

On the page

To lessen the pain

That had me writing
In the first place.

Time had elapsed

And sometimes, I relapse.

Divided

Because

It was noted

Pulled from

Opposite corners

I was undecided

What is a piece

Without its end
Will I find peace
If I write the end

Time had elapsed

And sometimes, I relapse;

Should I

Work on the old

Or learn to

Let go.